Senza farlo apposta

The song explores the ups and downs of a relationship that feels more like a game than genuine love. Shade reflects on the confusion of love, the hurt of feeling unappreciated, and the challenge of moving on. It’s a raw look at how love can hurt, and how sometimes, we find ourselves stuck in patterns we can’t escape.

Verse 1

A volte dirsi ti amo
È più finto di un dai ci sentiamo
Ho il tuo numero ma non ti chiamo
A te fa bene, a me fa strano Che parli con me ma non sono qui
E non ci credo ai tuoi fidati
Prima facevi monologhi
Ora parli a monosillabi

In this first verse, Shade sets the tone of the song. He talks about the emptiness of saying "I love you" when it feels forced. The line about having her number but not calling hints at a disconnection between them. He feels strange about the relationship, noting how she talks to him but he feels absent. The shift from deep conversations to short replies shows a lack of intimacy that used to exist, emphasizing the emotional distance that has grown.

Chorus

E scusa ma, non me ne importa
E sono qua, un'altra volta
Ci finisco sempre senza farlo apposta
Aspetto ancora una risposta

The chorus hits hard with its repetition and frustration. Shade expresses that despite his hurt, he’s still there, almost like a habit. He’s stuck in this cycle, waiting for a response that never comes. It captures that feeling of being caught in a loop of hope and disappointment, where he doesn't want to care, but he does anyway.

Verse 2

E ti ho detto ti amo
Non eri il regalo che immaginavo
Noi piano piano ci roviniamo
Dammi il mio panico quotidiano Quando ti vedo con gli altri
Tu non sai quanto vorrei essere via
Sei troppo bella per essere vera
Ma anche troppo bella per essere mia

Here, Shade reveals more of his inner turmoil. He admits that the love he feels is not what he expected, and it’s slowly ruining both of them. The mention of daily panic shows how her presence affects him deeply, especially when he sees her with others. He recognizes her beauty but feels unworthy, highlighting the conflict between admiration and insecurity.

Chorus

E scusa ma, non me ne importa
E sono qua, un'altra volta
Ci finisco sempre senza farlo apposta
Aspetto ancora una risposta

The chorus repeats again, reinforcing that sense of being trapped. Shade’s frustration builds as he grapples with his feelings. It’s almost like he’s trying to convince himself he doesn’t care, but his actions contradict that.

Bridge

Scusa ma, non ci riesco
Mi hai lasciato un po' di te
Ma hai preso tutto il resto
E sono qui stasera, ancora un'altra volta Che c'è la luna piena
Ma tu hai la luna storta

In the bridge, Shade expresses his struggle to let go. The line about her taking everything while leaving just a little behind is powerful. It shows how much he’s lost in this relationship. The imagery of the full moon contrasts with her “storta” (crooked) moon, suggesting that while things might look beautiful, they’re not quite right.

Chorus

E scusa ma, non me ne importa
E sono qua, un'altra volta
Ci finisco sempre senza farlo apposta
Aspetto ancora una risposta

The final chorus echoes the earlier sentiments. Shade’s repetition of his feelings of being stuck drives home the song’s theme. The cycle continues, and he’s still waiting for something to change, yet he knows deep down that it probably won’t.

Closing Thoughts

"Senza farlo apposta" beautifully captures the confusion and pain of love. Shade's lyrics are relatable, showing how easy it is to get caught in a loop of emotions. The song reminds us that love can be complicated, and sometimes, despite our best efforts, we find ourselves stuck in situations that hurt us. It's a heartfelt and honest reflection on love, loss, and the struggles that come with it.