Kick Myself
Summary
"Kick Myself" by Morgan Wallen dives into the struggle of self-acceptance and the difficulty of breaking harmful patterns. Despite trying to change his life for the better, he feels trapped by his own thoughts and past decisions.
Full Analysis
The song's overall theme is about the inner battle with oneself. Morgan Wallen expresses frustration over trying to make positive changes but still feeling stuck. He talks about cutting out bad influences and seeking help, yet he realizes that the biggest hurdle is himself. It’s a relatable struggle for anyone who’s tried to improve their life but finds themselves slipping back into old habits.
Verse 1
Been talking to a doctor
Been talking to the Lord
Cut off a couple people
That don't hear from me no more
In this verse, Wallen opens up about seeking guidance from both a medical professional and a spiritual source. He mentions distancing himself from people who no longer support him. This sets a serious tone, showing he’s trying to make changes but also hints at a loneliness in that process. It’s like he’s trying to take control of his life but feels isolated in his journey.
Chorus
Ooo
Nothing's changed in a way it's gettin' way worse, way worse
Ooo
Don't think I'm doing myself any favors, favors, since I
Here, the chorus captures the feeling of despair. Wallen expresses that despite his efforts, things seem to be getting worse rather than better. It’s a moment of honesty, admitting that he’s not helping himself as much as he thought he would. This contradiction highlights the frustration of trying to do the right thing but feeling like he’s failing.
Verse 2
Kicked the bottle
Kicked the bag
Scratched the Broadway off the map
Maybe that'd work if I was someone else
In this verse, Wallen lists the things he’s trying to leave behind, like alcohol and unhealthy behaviors. He mentions "scratching the Broadway off the map," which could refer to turning away from a party lifestyle. It shows he’s making big sacrifices, but there’s a sense of resignation when he wonders if these changes would work better if he were a different person. It’s a stark reminder that sometimes, external changes don’t fix internal struggles.
Chorus
Kicked the strangers out my bed
Kicked the voices out my head
Did my best
But I just can't kick myself
This chorus reinforces the idea of battling with oneself. He’s trying to remove distractions and negativity from his life, but he still can’t escape his mind. The repetition of “kick myself” emphasizes that the hardest fight is often against our own thoughts and feelings. It’s both empowering and disheartening, showing the complexity of recovery and self-acceptance.
Bridge
Me myself and I
These rambling ways won't ever die
Lord knows that my mama tried
But I just can't kick myself
In the bridge, Wallen reflects on his struggles with identity and self-destructive patterns. He acknowledges that his mother tried to help him, but despite her efforts, he feels stuck. The mention of "me, myself, and I" suggests a sense of isolation, as if he’s grappling with his demons alone. It’s a moment that really humanizes him, showing vulnerability in a struggle many can relate to.
Outro
Kicked the bottle
Kicked the bag
Scratched the Broadway off the map
Maybe that'd work if I was someone else
Kicked the strangers out my bed
Kicked the voices out my head
Did my best
But I just can't kick myself
The outro brings back the earlier themes, repeating the actions he's taken to change his life. It feels cyclical, almost like he’s trapped in a loop of trying and failing. Despite all his efforts, he’s still unable to escape himself. It leaves listeners with a sense of unresolved tension, highlighting the ongoing nature of personal battles.
Closing Thoughts
"Kick Myself" is a raw and honest look at the struggles of self-improvement. Wallen's lyrics resonate with anyone who's faced their own demons, showing that change is not just about cutting off bad habits, but also about facing the hardest part, yourself. It’s a powerful reminder that the journey to getting better can be messy and complicated.
Full Lyrics
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Been talking to the Lord
Cut off a couple people
That don't hear from me no more
They say it's for the better
But is it really for the best?
They said I'd get more sleep
But I ain't getting any rest
Ooo
Nothing's changed in a way it's gettin' way worse, way worse
Ooo
Don't think I'm doing myself any favors, favors, since I
Kicked the bottle
Kicked the bag
Scratched the Broadway off the map
Maybe that'd work if I was someone else
Kicked the strangers out my bed
Kicked the voices out my head
Did my best
But I just can't kick myself
(Me myself and I
These rambling ways won't ever die
Lord knows that my mama tried
But I just can't kick myself)
Everybody on the outside
It's easy looking in
Probably think I'm doing great like
Take a look at him
He's gone and straightened up now
He's finally walking lines
I ain't lying I was probably doing fine before I
Kicked the bottle
Kicked the bag
Scratched the Broadway off the map
Maybe that'd work if I was someone else
Kicked the strangers out my bed
Kicked the voices out my head
Did my best
But I just can't kick myself
Me myself and I
These rambling ways won't ever die
Lord knows that my mama tried
Said son go get some help
Huh what I do
Exactly what they told me to
Kicked the shit that I used to use
But just can't kick myself
Kicked the bottle
Kicked the bag
Scratched the Broadway off the map
Maybe that'd work if I was someone else
Kicked the strangers out my bed
Kicked the voices out my head
Did my best
But I just can't kick myself
Me myself and I
These rambling ways won't ever die
Lord knows that my mama tried
Said son go get some help
Huh what I do
Exactly what they told me to
Kicked the shit that I used to use
But just can't kick myself